For awhile I was ridiculously overwhelmed. I was directing a play that took up every minute of my life and took away from friendships, my relationship with God and my family. When it ended I felt lost. No more rehearsals or being involved in one of the things I am most passionate about. It was looking like my hours were going to get cut at work and I was running out of money to pay for my car, insurance and phone bill. Things were looking like they were going down hill.
It's funny how when we feel like everything is going wrong it is really going according to God's plan. All my life I have been told that, "everything works together for good," and although it is easy to tell myself that, it is not always easy to believe.
I came to the realization this week that the Lord is working things out this way for my own good. If my hours are cut I can help with the next play. It also gave me an opportunity to explain to my boss that I am leaving in a few months (something I was nervous to do.) If I help with the next play I will still have the joy of being involved with something I love so much. If I work less at the office I can spend more time teaching piano, a job that I enjoy more and brings in more money to take care of my bills. I can also get back to the normalcy of life, having time for God, family and friends. I've been reminded that even when things seem bad something good is going to come out of it. During the trials I can't see the good but in the end I realize that God's plan is always greater then my own.
When things feel lik they are falling apart they are really falling together.